Growing Stronger~

right now.. twenty past three~ i read a manga.. one piece manga.. original volume set number 65 for indonesian... while listening to linkin park - numb hijack edition..

for a moment, popped out a morale story from one piece manga.. the main character said "i train harder to protect the one i beloved.", "i'll protecting this place. it's belong to my beloved one" they are strong people in the story. in that moment, i cry, my heart ached, my mind pressured.. why am i so weak.. that my beloved one must suffer.. why am i such a coward.. so that my beloved one must hide her smile.. why, why?

and from that moment.. i gained something.. i must grow stronger.. stronger from anybody so that my beloved one didnt suffer.. so that i can protect her.. make her feel relieved..

i'll grow stronger.. greater than anybody.. so that you can believe in me... so that you'll feel relief while you are at my side..

a light that lead me to the surface~

these day.. i live a happy life.. everyday i see a smile.. someone smile that give me light, that cheer me up, boost up my mood.. it's her smile.. almost every moment i remember her smile.. i smiling to my self.. telling my self that i was lucky.. telling my self that i'm happy right now.. my heart beating so fast.. when i see that smile directly, it was the happiest moment in my life.. seeing her happy every day.. seeing her alright every day ..

these day i live a happy life.. no more darkness that filling my heart up.. the darkness of life.. that lead to destruction.. because, she held my hand.. lead me.. from the bottom of darkness to the surface that full of happiness~

these day i live a happy life.. no more loneliness.. because she was always here by my side~

leesang - turned off the tv~